my...so called life

what youve missed, what you need to know

Thu, 17 Apr 2008 19:43:14 GMT

its been about 2 years since ive even been on this site,but now it gives me a chance to vent what has been going on since.ive had 4 boyfriends in the past 2 years, and in my entire life. the first one, was a lost cause i was deeply in love with him, but the thought of any of it just repulses me. utter disgust. the second one.. chris i was in love with him even after he broke it off with me, we still talk from time to time, but he has gone down him from when i first met him i hope that he is himself one day again. the third one, eric, i dont even know why i dated him it was only for a few weeks, i suppose i just needed someone to take my mind off things and he was a willing candidate. he had and still has alot of things wrong with his life. but then again who has everything together? the last one. bob, man did he hit me like a freight train, i believe his infatuation with me got the best of him, i think he was looking for someone to understand him for a short while. nothing else. nothing pure about the whole relationship. i still talk to him from time to time, but he'll never really know. the next guy that i want to date, i want it to be real for once. and not just about sex or showing me off to everyone. it will be pure and genuine or not at all. ive never been the one to dump a guy, and i dont think i ever will be. i need to find the protector of my heart. true love.

i never really liked school which is probably why i ended up not graduating. i got my GED finally. and the world is my oyster at the moment. i find that the things i can do with myself are limitless. i want to take on the world, one step at a time. i cant imagine just doing nothing with myself. i want to work at the airport. the thing about airports, they are filled with wonder for me. ill probably be jealous of everyone boarding planes to michigan, new york,china,australia brazil,south africa. sometimes i wonder what it would have been like to grow up in a different culture, like grow up in denmark, grow up in russia, grow up in colombia. i think growing up the way i did was so simple, but the way everyone grows up is unique and special because no one on this earth has had the same exact life i have. no one has seen the exact things i have and that means something to me. amazing

my best friends.. kate,lana,sam,jeannie. when i say i would do anything on this planet for my friends, i meant it.

i love it

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 04:13:39 GMT

Over on Bell Grande.

Sat, 08 Apr 2006 02:04:35 GMT

well things are crazy. i have been devoting alot of my time to one person.
i dont know if i should be doing that. but i havent been hangin with the girls in a while. im sure they are pissed in a way but understand. and this new guy frankie. yea hes it. and i think im going to get that job at Carvel.
nice.! and i dunno i cant wait for summer. i get to see all my relatives and what not and. i cant wait to just GET THE HELL OUT.!

2LIVECREW

there is a rose in the devils garden

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 15:30:20 GMT

well its been a while...spring break is great..my sister got arrested(finally) and i have a BUNCH of relatives coming to stay with me in may...(bummer) but kinda fun.

i missed the Horrorpops show and the Koffin Kats show..how sad..

and there are new things on the horizon..(whatever that means it was in my horoscope.)
soo yeah

thats always great

2LIVE CREW

vday and my love of independence

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 01:40:38 GMT

well valentines day is almost upon us.and i have yet to get anyone anything.
everyone already knows i love them, this is true. ill probably make cards.
and give them to all the lovers thatth i love.

might be working at hollywood video
thanks to my new friends
tammy a.k.a TAMMY-O

i wish everyone would stop causing contreversy
i mean when theres a car crash everyone slows down to watch the blood bath.

i feel like writing a really icky poem about zombies vampires and werewolves.

maybe maybe maybe.

START
A
BAND
MUTHER
FUCKER

bleeding through awesome spin kick

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 01:13:00 GMT

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CAR CAR CAR BIRTHDAY

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 06:58:58 GMT

IN A WEEK I GET MY LICENSE AND THAT IS THAT..
I CANT WAIT.!!

LOVE..
CALL MY ABOUT MY BIRTHSAY

ChangingNames

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 05:33:15 GMT

mmm yeah back to school in a bit..
i hate the idea of it..

and boys are stupid..really they are no good.

especially italian guys..are they cursed or what.?

but, i love my friendss.

xmas was awesome..soo was new years..

NIGGA WHAT.? NIGGA WHO.?

I DUNNO

DEM SLOPPY HOES.!

Sun, 11 Dec 2005 07:15:37 GMT

ahh kates over..
i just talked to stefan for the first time in forever
and hate him
i really do

its important that he is aware of this

well i watched Friday
its was amazing ..DUH AS ALWAYS/

frosty the hoe man

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 22:53:15 GMT

christmas is almost upon us.
i cant wait to get out of school
exams are gonna be shitty as helll
oh well
i cant wait to be off..

danas top 3 movies for xmas

1. a christmas story
2. friday after next
3. uhh what else is there.?

BEST MOVIES EVER
(i will be watching these with friends over the break.)

Friday
The Players club.
house party
boys in the hood
do the right thing

THATS GONNA BE THE SHIT
YO

Bow Down.! the merch has arrived.!!

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 23:40:55 GMT

i got my tsunami bomb merch today
i was soo excited
ahhhhhhh
but it was for xmas
soo im only allowed to have a sweater now
but heh the sizes were really big
but oh well i love it

i love TSUNAMI BOMB

if emily whitehurst was here
i would bow down.
ALL HAIL AGENT M.!!
because she is amazing..

LOVE

will the real hoochie mama please stand up.

Sat, 03 Dec 2005 00:18:08 GMT

ive been listening to that song forever now
i wish i was in 2 live crew.
man that'd be awesome

geez im mad at the whole male kind
Stefan is like ignoring me now
but i know when he gets bored and autumn is treating him like crap
he'll call me
thats why its soo sad
oh well i think that ill always like him in a way.
im always there for him whenever he needs to talk..
but im there for all my friends when ever they need someone to talk to .
i just wish it worked both ways,
though i love my friends.

Stefan=poopfacehead, doo doo.

yea dean is cool it was soo fun seeing him last weekend
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

DOO DOO CA CA LOVE

He Smashes My Soul

Sun, 20 Nov 2005 20:38:15 GMT

yea theres this guy and he has a gf in MO and he told me he liked me and now he just wants to be friends.
WHAT A WANKER.

haha oh well..

who needs em'....

When i'm down, you get me up
I always have you to count on
When i'm alone, you call
with a voice
That makes me smile
Taking away, the pain
You remove my infection
My band, my friends
My life, my pride
What keeps me undefeated

Words that go unspoken
You know what's in my heart

these are for all my good friends
that make life that much easier.
I LOVE YOU GUYS.

im gonna try and name every one.

kate-brookie-jess-kaitlyn-all the lovers in the 813.

oh and one more thing.
i dont think ill ever like someone.
as much and i like him

S.P -THANKS FOR NOT CARING.
love

My Happiness Doesnt ever Last..

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 05:13:13 GMT

well my friends are feuding..jess is mad at me i think.i dunno....i hope not..i havent done anything wrong.
and i dunno i was really joyful lately and everything was going good..and it always seems to come CRASHING
down. but i dunno i want to plan for my bday already

JANUARY 21..!!!

probably gonna have bands play and crap..

I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS
THEY ARE SPECIAL TOO ME.
I WOULDNT CHANGE THEM
FOR THE WORLD..

i cant wait till schools out.
man thats gonna be heaven.

license on Jan 19
WOOT WOOT
ALL HAIL THE SPEED MACHINE

THATS LOVE..
THE ONLY TRUE LOVE

salute your shorts

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 21:55:46 GMT

well today was fun
went to eat with renee kate and jess
and we sat around and laughed a bit
i love it

band practice tomorrow..
YESS..!!!!

i hope we have a band for a while
and actually get to play shows.
at least 1
that would be awesome

LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVLEOLVVE

Da Band

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 00:02:39 GMT

starting a band with jess and brooke.
amazing.i cant wait to get better.brooke is really excited about it.
and i am too.!
but drama has arisen but no care.

well thats that..

i heart my friends.

MICKEY MCMICK FROM IRELAND

Fri, 14 Oct 2005 19:41:47 GMT

I SLEPT OVER AT BROOKES HOUSE.SHE KEPT ME UP ALL NIGHT.ITS WAS COOL THOUGH.DONT KNOW WHAT IM GONNA DO THIS WEEKEND.GAHHH.PROBABLY NOTHING.I HOPE MY REPORT CARD IS DECENT.IF IT ISNT .I THINK ILL DIE.

LOVE LOVE LOVE
LOVE LOVE LOVE
LOVE LOVE LOVE.
YESAAAA...

DANA THE G

all along we follow blindly.

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 05:09:49 GMT

well homecoming was G-A-Y
and we went to a bowling alley.
and to checkers.
and i danced with todd.
and i missed nick.
and i dont think nick really like me.

but yea.

the end.

D.

Rev. Run

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 04:04:42 GMT

Hypothetically speaking.
i believe reverand run is amazing.
chyea...

party on Garth..
party on Wayne..

WAYNES WORLD..
PARTY TIME..

EXCELLENT.

DOO-LOO DOO DOO LOO

THERE.

annie are you okay.?..are you okay annie.?

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 03:30:42 GMT

well school is going well i guess.i love my life.i get my license soon.
then maybe i can start being more social or whatever.then i can look for a job.
aha yea a job..thats funny as hell..

DANA LOVES THE SUN THAT COMES IN THE WINDOW IN THE MORNING..YEP

i am crazy.or is it just you.?

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 16:20:52 GMT

well im in barbados for the week.i thought it was going to be fun but.its really not.nothing to do really.and i miss all my freinds and i wish i could talk to kate.but my cell phone doesnt work here.and the people are really cool
and they have real reggae here not the bullshit u.s crap. the real stuff.
but yea.i dont know who too trust now a days.thats why i seem to act rude to people i just meet. my freinds i have now are the coolest people ever .i wouldnt change them for anything.all the fun times ive had.

I LOVE MY FREINDS.
THEY ARE GENUINE.

YES

you will be my lucky star..

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 07:00:30 GMT

well i still havent found a job.though i dont think im really putting effort into it.im a serious bum.it is true.
and i have learned who my friends are.and i have been meeting cool new people who have totally different views on life than i do.but anyway.life is just amazing.rocky as hell sometimes.
but i love my life.and i tried to dye my hair blonde(not all of it)but it didnt work out.but im just gonna style it different.woot woot.

yeah all is good.

insanity killed the cat.and the dog.

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 16:01:17 GMT

well well well..summer is going great.met alot of cool new people.lost some friends and gained some friends.but i cant wait for vaca.the beach and surfing..awwwwwwww thats the life.
i thank god everyday for the "real" friends i have.i love them soo..thats that

all the jaded ones...

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 18:03:26 GMT

well summer is the best.hangin out with good friends...chillin
and finding out who my real friends are..its great though finding out how far people will just to hurt some one else..its amazing..i dont care what people think of me never have never will..so those people who have showed nothing but friendliness i thank every day that they are alive...i thank god for the good people in my life....

when things are bad as they can be
dark curtains rise so you can see..
and the sun sinks to the west
and blue fills the sky...

unguard ..

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 05:07:35 GMT

well the show should be fun on saturday at the spot..emelia is such an indie chick..and my grades are gettin better..thank god
and ive managed to be nicer to everyone and oh effin s**t everyone is nicer too me waht a concept oh well..not much else to say..

what do u want for your birthday....power rangers.!!
what do u want for christmas........power rangers.!!
what do u want for easter ..........power rangers.!!

woot woot